Quite amazing really. My Mum, in the Chinese restaurant pic, reminded me of these pictures that I had stored on my work PC not the Mac where I do all my blog and Facebook from. 

These photos are from their trip in November. Placing these on is a very sad one for me, as we look so happy like any normal family. The blond guy is my brother DK.

It's just sad to see such happy smily faces of all our family and know that Ni will never be in another family photo with us. So sad. She lights up every photo I have, and indeed the room she was in. 

More counselling for me tomorrow, it's reaching the much needed stage - I have to admit i was supposed to go Friday but dropped out at the last minute. I couldn't face it. But tomorrow I will be there absolutely. 

Thanks for reminding me of these pics Mum - some lovely family shots of us all. Lovely. See you even tried the chopsticks. Well done Mr Kennett jnr for being able to use them, well done Oliver.

Many have asked including counsellours and friends when did Ni and I first meet. Well everyone here it is - the infamous 1st encounter. As you can see Nina was as usual absolutely beautiful, and very sexy in this little number. Yes the guy withe huge affro is indeed me. This was our very good friends 30th party at her parents old house in Margate - a leaving house do and 70's night.

The funny thing was I spoke to Ni's a lot that night, we all danced, drank and had such fun together. I had to go back the next day to Barbara's to collect something I had left and Ni actually answered the door as she was staying with Barbara. "Hello Ni, how are you this morning?" I said. She said ................................"Sorry who are you?" Ha Ha, funny funny. Yep because of my great fancy dress she had absolutely NO idea it was me. Bless her.

So there you have it, the first meeting between Nina and Brian Kennett. It wouldn't be until about 5 years later though that we had out first couple experience. But perhaps that's not good for the blog - ha ha. Also at Barbara's strangely enough.

Sometimes you have good days, and today was good. 

Check out baby Amy for one of her first stands, very proud of her. She will 100% be walking before she is one I think, just a shame her mum is not here to see all this happening. She is such a beautiful little thing, and you can tell actually she is very proud of herself let alone we all being the same.

Ollie is being amazingly good, Miss Atima told me today he was doing really well at school. Good boy Ollie. We looked through some of Nina's photos today before he went to bed, we both got a little upset, but we played a video clip or two and it was lovely to hear her voice.

Ollie is doing from the field to the table at school, learning where foods come from and the like. So I had my first oliver sandwich made for me at the weekend, thanks Ollie it was Yummy!!! More please.

I am back to work, it's official. Very very busy working on only one client based in Singapore and Malaysia. Still not sleeping very well and probably drinking and smoking far too much for my own good, but I know it'll get better soon. I owe it to the kids who have been supporting me so much the past weeks. 

Well that's the update for today, very proud of Amy, you saw it here first her first standing, 17th March 2009. Bless!!!!!!

Yet again my lovely boy Oliver has amazed me. I was speaking (via SMS) to his teacher, Miss Atima, to make sure all was OK with him at school and with his homework. He has a disco tonight so wanted to make sure he was OK.

I receive the following back from Atima, which has just made me smile, thank you so much Ollie. 

"He's doing fine. Don't worry. He's a great guy. We were reading about fruit and nuts, when we heard thunder and he said maybe it's my Mum breaking nuts in the sky. Or she's getting cross at someone up there. He's just great."

Daddy is so very proud and loves you so very much, and Mummy and Amy do absolutely as well.

Yesterday was an interesting day for me, as it was the first business trip I have had to do away from the kids since Ni left us. Bit of a panicky couple of days, but actually Ollie and Amy were fine. Usual thing though of something happening when I was away the fridge packed up and defrosted a load of food of ours, typical. But pails in to insignificance compared to last time.

I have continued the counselling and saw Dr Perera this week. Talked a lot and went through Nina photos so very emotional, but great to talk about her from the very first time we met - at Barbaras 70's house leaving do in Westbrook. Trying to find the photos of Brownie and me, as were were blacked up with affros etc. I had to go back the next day to get something and Ni was there still. Yes hello can I help, er it's me Kenno - she had no idea because of the fancy dress. Bless! My first time with Ni.

2 friends also announced this week that they are to marry soon. Great news for them, delighted in fact. So Goffy and Jeremy will be marrying in 2009 - they even said that perhaps Nina helped with that "push" to do it as you never know what is around the corner. Sp Goffy in UK and Jeremy now lives here in Singapore - but is to marry in Phuket Thailand and then be there Xmas day. I think I will be going to this wedding as even the counsellour said be cautious at main events and try to do something different - so what better than Xmas in Phuket??? So the photo above is the last time we went to Phuket with only Oliver at the time of course as we flew from Australia. Now we're 50 minutes away in SIngapore.

Take care all, with much love from Bri, Amy and Ollie

 I have to say this one took some doing. Very emotional experience creating this, and I just hope it does the lovely girl justice, because she truly is just so beautiful. These are some of my favourite photos and moments from trips or just fun with friends. She looks amazing as will be the way I and I think all will remember her.

Beautiful Nina. Love you gorgeous always, Bri xxx

   Sorry for the crazy video clip. This is one that makes me and Ollie laugh, and is important for us, and I am hoping for you all too as Ollie and I have sat and said "we don't want to forget what Mummy's voice sounds like". So we use this one as a reminder and because it makes us laugh too.

I thought also in this I would advise you all that I made a decision when people were asking re where to send flowers and asked that the monies they would use for that actually be channeled to a charity. So Nina has caused nearly 2,000 USD to be raised for a Breast Cancer Charity in Asia, it's a support group that literally supports the poor families that have to go through treatment. So it's an amazing cause and I know she would be proud that she has helped indirectly. We were talking about this together so I know she would approve, as a friend of mine had to use the support himself when his lovely wife, Alice, was diagnosed. Well she is treated now and on the road to recovery which is the best news.

Well a short one for today. It's been a busy week as I have gone back to work, Ollie is at school, Mary is embedded in the family now, my Mum flies home Firday and Nina's Mum joins us same day, I passed my Singaporean driving test (very important), we're moving condos on 18th April latest, I am having baby first aid course today etc. Very very busy!!!! Love to you all Bri, Amy and Ollie xxx